This Thanksgiving I am thankful. I am thankful for my parents and my family who searched every hospital to find Kevin, who kept me on the phone so I wouldn’t wreck, who drove a thousand miles to be with me once we knew what happened, who stayed with me until I got back on my…
Author: mnweinberger88
Making my way through grief. One day at a time.
The Fictional Antidote
I know it can be daunting to help a loved one who is grieving. I also know that everyone is different in what they need or want when they’re hurting. For a long time, I have been so lost in my pain that I haven’t been able to fathom how it can be helped by…
From Boys to Men.
Watching a guy sacrifice his ego to sweep a girl off her feet might be one of the most beautiful things to witness. It’s not always in the way you imagined it would be either. Kev once shared this quote with me: “Don’t trust charming. Why? Because the boy who can talk all the right words…
A Eulogy.
Some of you may not know, but my Kevin was an avid fan of the musical “Les Miserable.” I’m talking about every song, every character, and every line – Kevin Michael Gervais knew it. I pulled this quote from that story when thinking of how to speak about my love for him. “…the power of…
My Inner Battle.
October and I were not very good friends so I’m trying to make nice with November. I let my anxiety get the best of me and it overtook my body. Your health can only take so much of that. Sometimes I don’t even realize I am doing it. My shoulders tense up, the acid in…
My September.
I found a new freedom in enjoying my life. Seems simple enough, however, this has been the hardest for me to accomplish. There were about six months of this past year where I only knew pain. I would go about my life in an almost robotic way to the point that it would scare me….
A Year Of Light.
Dumbledore is still right.
Fall, damnit.
We have finally seen a few signs of fall weather in Mississippi and I hate it. The very scent of a pumpkin candle makes me want to punch a wall. Fall is normally my favorite season. From football to Oktoberfest beers to warmer clothes that hide my pale skin and hearty fall food. I love…
A Man and His Robe.
I remember his family asking what I wanted to keep. What did I want to keep? I want Kevin. Nothing else mattered. We continued packing up his things. 800 pairs of shoes, fraternity shirts, and more shoes. I imagine Kev’s closet in heaven has an entire section for shoes. Packing up his life was an…
Melissa Worrier Weinberger.
Anyone that knows me will tell you that I am the most chill and laid back person. …No, sorry that was Kevin. I am the complete opposite. Nicole may be my middle name, but it might as well be Worrier. I am not really sure where it started, but ever since I can remember worrying…
Courage & Love.
It’s been a while since I have posted, but I only like to write when the emotions are bursting out of me. Also, there’s the fact that I came down with a brutal stomach bug. Awful. It reminded me of how being ill can make you feel helpless. Especially when you are rendered motionless by…
Get. On. The. Gondola.
My heart’s birthday is this Saturday, August 8th. He would have been 30 years old. Instead of talking about how gut wrenching that fact is for me to accept, I wanted to take this time to reflect on this short life we are given. Because it is just that, short. It’s easy to get caught in the…
Learning to Live Life Deliberately 