This Thanksgiving I am thankful.

I am thankful for my parents and my family who searched every hospital to find Kevin, who kept me on the phone so I wouldn’t wreck, who drove a thousand miles to be with me once we knew what happened, who stayed with me until I got back on my feet, who thought for me when my brain could not, who feed me when I could not eat and who loved me when I could not love myself enough to heal. I love you all.

I am thankful for Taylor Bailey who kept Kevin’s fate from me until I safely made it to New Orleans. You saved my life that day and every day since. I love you.

I am thankful to Kevin’s family who had the horrible task of telling me what happened, who held me as my heart broke into a thousand pieces, who have held me every day since as we learn to heal together. God, I am so thankful for this beautiful family. Momma Karen, Keith, Kristen, Kaitlyn, Bryce, Brynnen, Maw Maw Millie, Aunt Laurie, Aunt Mary, Uncle P, Michael, Monique, Erin, Tracey… I just love you all.

I am thankful for Kevin Silva who held me as I collapsed at the pain of losing my Heart, who guided me through losing a loved one and continues to do so. I love you.

I am thankful to Zoe Beckham who happened to be in town on a night I needed her the most, who cleaned off my glasses as they were covered in my tears and who has given me escapes from my agony. I love you.

I am thankful for my Aunt and Uncle Michelle and Beau Stewart for driving to New Orleans and helping me through the worst night of my life and for all you have done each night after, I am eternally thankful. I love you both.

I am thankful to my brother, Royce, who stayed up with me nights that I couldn’t sleep, who gave me hugs whenever I needed them and who shared his love for Kevin with me. I love you.

I am thankful for Emily Thomas who stepped in like a big sister and became my guardian through those initial days of complete devastation. You kept my soul alive. I love you.

I am thankful for those at my company, Godwin, including Kami Wert, Lulu Intan, Shailee Bhatt, Philip Shirley, Jeff Russell, Jessica Russell & Susan Graves for being incredibly understanding in helping me through this last year. I am so thankful to work for a company with as much compassion as you have shown me. Thank you.

I am thankful for Kevin’s best friends Kenny, Gus, Tom, Tim, Brian, Sean, Spencer, Jeff… You have saved me on more days than you may ever know. I am so thankful to know Kev had you in his life and that I have you in mine. I love you all.

I am thankful for SO many beautiful souls…Kate Schraeder, Laura Skelton, Kayte Henry, Bethany Brown, Carly Brunt, Dailey Avery, Lindsay Hays, Courtney Moore, Lauren Moore, Hillary Britt, Morgan Dunaway, Anna Mire, Melissa Clark, Kellie Johnson, Nicole Cohea, Rebecca Gilbert, Tara Gremillion, Stephanie Brown, Jill McCallister, Sue Carson, Nicole Winkler, Angie April. And SO SO SO many others. You kept my heart beating through this year of grief.

Through various visits, Popeyes deliveries, surprise packages, phone calls, snuggles, trips, concerts, endless hugs and overall friendship. I am forever thankful for all the beautiful souls in my life. I could NOT have survived this last year without each of you. I love you all.

I am thankful to have more people to thank than I can recall at once. I am thankful for having the blessing of good souls around me. I am thankful to Kevin, for never letting me feel alone in this pain and for constantly sending me reminders of the biggest blessing I have in my life: my loved ones.

Til Next Time.