Watching a guy sacrifice his ego to sweep a girl off her feet might be one of the most beautiful things to witness. It’s not always in the way you imagined it would be either. Kev once shared this quote with me: “Don’t trust charming. Why? Because the boy who can talk all the right words…
Tag: Grief
A Eulogy.
Some of you may not know, but my Kevin was an avid fan of the musical “Les Miserable.” I’m talking about every song, every character, and every line – Kevin Michael Gervais knew it. I pulled this quote from that story when thinking of how to speak about my love for him. “…the power of…
My Inner Battle.
October and I were not very good friends so I’m trying to make nice with November. I let my anxiety get the best of me and it overtook my body. Your health can only take so much of that. Sometimes I don’t even realize I am doing it. My shoulders tense up, the acid in…
A Year Of Light.
Dumbledore is still right.
A Man and His Robe.
I remember his family asking what I wanted to keep. What did I want to keep? I want Kevin. Nothing else mattered. We continued packing up his things. 800 pairs of shoes, fraternity shirts, and more shoes. I imagine Kev’s closet in heaven has an entire section for shoes. Packing up his life was an…
Melissa Worrier Weinberger.
Anyone that knows me will tell you that I am the most chill and laid back person. …No, sorry that was Kevin. I am the complete opposite. Nicole may be my middle name, but it might as well be Worrier. I am not really sure where it started, but ever since I can remember worrying…
Courage & Love.
It’s been a while since I have posted, but I only like to write when the emotions are bursting out of me. Also, there’s the fact that I came down with a brutal stomach bug. Awful. It reminded me of how being ill can make you feel helpless. Especially when you are rendered motionless by…
Get. On. The. Gondola.
My heart’s birthday is this Saturday, August 8th. He would have been 30 years old. Instead of talking about how gut wrenching that fact is for me to accept, I wanted to take this time to reflect on this short life we are given. Because it is just that, short. It’s easy to get caught in the…
Fighting For Good Days.
I knew I needed to get help about the second month after the funeral. I moved out of my apartment, my family went home, I went back to work and it was the time I start life. This time without Kevin. Facing that reality somehow felt like a relapse. It got painfully quiet and I…
Simple Joys
We had big dreams. Dreams of traveling the world together. Dreams of going to a Boston Red Sox game and sipping Sam Adams fresh from the brewery. Dreams of building a house together and raising a family. We loved talking about our dreams despite not having the funds to support them. We had little money…
Miss Independent
I can remember being young and my cousin telling me, “Missy, you’re so mean to boys.” “…And?” was my response. It’s not so much that I hated guys, I just enjoyed being independent and had a take no shit attitude. I remember Kevin finding this out. It didn’t take him long. In fact, I remember…
Learning to Live Life Deliberately 